Looking back but looking forward too.
It took me quite sometime to be able to say goodbye alcohol. Well, it took me six months. I’d like to say I never wanted to drink after that but that’s not true. In fact I think it took me almost all of my two years to really accept drinking was part of my past. But at six months I couldn’t really imagine a path back to it. And I think then I truly accepted that since I’d had mostly a happy and contented period off the sauce, it was only my addiction that would entice me back. No other good reason, no way I could have convinced myself that life would be better or more fun if I started again. I knew the truth by then. The truth being that my life was infinitely better without alcohol in it, but that my brain would occasionally try and tell me otherwise. When I first stopped drinking I couldn’t even write the words in my journal - I’ve given up drinking and I will never drink again. Imagine, not even being able to write that down in my perfectly private journal. But to celebrate making